I’ll need to hurry with my shopping today. I doubt we’ll have snow, but it looks like a chilly rain is imminent. Problems I don’t need, no matter how much my heart aches. Just once I’d like to receive a letter back. I pull the sealed envelope that holds ten crisp one hundred dollar bills inside a funny card out of my purse and slip it into the outgoing box. The last few cards I sent, I foolishly included my PO box address. I check it but don’t find any correspondence. On the way to the market, I pass by the post office where my PO box is located. In an effort to block his annoyingly handsome face from my mind, I think about my new job. I don’t like that he’s rattled some memories inside me that I prefer to keep hidden. Gray, my stupid boss, has grabbed my now normal life and given it a hard shake. I hastily swipe them away as I leave to do my weekly shopping. Hot, furious tears are spilling from my eyes. Things that would tear apart everything I’ve worked so hard to achieve if they ever got out. Things that still embarrass and horrify me. I don’t want to think about the things he made me do.

I don’t want to recall how he went from possessive boyfriend, to monster, to my worst nightmare. I don’t want to remember the years I spent with Vaughn. If he pulls open the parts of my past I keep contained, I’ll lose my mind. And now, I feel like he’s prying into something that needs to remain shut. How dare he suddenly become so damn nosy about my life! I’ve worked hard to keep certain things to myself. Before heading to the farmer’s market, I stop by my apartment and change into something more comfortable.

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